Thursday, June 14, 2007

The 19th



19th...

Used to received a bouquet of flowers every 19th of the month.. dunno when... the tradition has lost...
Remember my friend one told me, 'Cupid has lost his touch'
Maybe it's true.. Cupid has forgotten to send me a bouquet of flowers every 19th.
Remember when I was young, I always admire my friens who received flowers during valentine's day.
At times, I will even wonder if there is anyone would give any flowers.
One day, the Cupid ask me what kinda flower I like.
Immediately I say, ' black and white roses as well as dark blue
People ask me why I want it black... dunno just love the mysterious of the colour

Today, the Cupid ask me if I would to receive flowers, what would I want.
This time I reply," A combination of sunflowers, geberas, daisy and chrysanthemun"

Why? Because that combination is very colourful... cheer up my day.. show how bright future I will have...

From Mysterious Black Roses to Colourful combination flowers.....
From the sad, gloomy, and negative Kaysin to the happy, cheerful, positive me....


Cupid... 19th... a day that I will never forget... please do not stop delivering flowers to cheer me up :)



Van Gogh

Remember when I was in my year 2, I asked my dad to buy a book on Painting which I saw on TV. At that time, I love art. Parents and aunt often buy colouring material for me to colour.
Of course my dad bought the book (which I'm still having it in my drawer). The book was all about Vincent Van Gogh. I'm too young to know who he is. Though, as I read the book, I get to know him more and his art more and more. Thanks to that book, I had a dictionary with me as all words are new vocab for me. And of course.. I try to imitate his painting which result all the dirty crayons' stain on the table and walls..(my drawings still with me.. haha) I love the afternoon nap and the stary night that he drawn.
As I found out he shot himself, I began to wonder why. Of course I don't get to have a satisfied answer as I'm too young to understand. All my parents could answer was,"He is mad"... and I will start wonder why is he mad... kids have many questions..
Guess, now I can understand.. when one goes through all the dissapointments... pressures...sadness...all the emotions... anything can happen.. Maybe ending his life is not a bad thing.... (well, afterall, he was only recognised after he is dead)
in year 5, I started listen to oldies (thanks to my parents and my year 4 english teacher). Then, my mom told me of a song called Vincent. At that time, though, never understand what does the lyrics mean... I fall in love with that song. never know who is Vincent..
Recently, I watched a drama. And 'Vincent' was played in it. Again, my memories flashed back the time I was small and naive. Then I went to the net to search for the song.. only to realise the connection between Vincent and Van Gogh. It does not hit me that the 2 Vincent are the same person. (maybe I'm too young to realise back then)


Now, I know.

The lyrics seems to be more and more meaningful.

I gets to understand more and more
The reason behind his suicide
The trouble he is having
The dissapointment he is facing
The hope he had lost...

"Now I think I know what you tried to say to me, (Step in to the reality of life I do understand now)How you suffered for your sanity, (Just like how 'she' said I'm crazy)
How you tried to set them free. (It's really hard)
They would not listen, they're not listening still.

Perhaps they never will..." (Yes, they never will beause they didn't go through it)
Maybe one day....
*****

Starry starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue,
morning fields of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,

Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.

Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Monday, June 04, 2007

我失恋了



最进一位朋友时常对我说,"我失恋了"
以前,对失恋这个字觉得很怕也觉得很累。
心里问,"又要从新再来吗?"好累,好累!
也会对这好朋友哭。
打电的第一句话就是"我又失恋了"。
然后就会大声的哭。
想起以前,真的要感谢这好朋友。
每天都会把有空的时间来听"我失恋了"。
谢谢你!
失恋的路不容易走,
要坚强和勇敢的心,
不要再想恋了,
让过去的过去明天的路会更好。
朋友,我们会再者陪伴着你。
Be happy ALWAYS!!!
失恋、其实也没什么大不了。
它也可以是一个很开心的事。
失恋是因为要向另边寻找快乐和信服。

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