|
Thursday, January 27, 2005
My Life of Luck
Was out shopping for New Year clothing with Soephix. Went over to Hartamas (our usual shopping haunt) at 8pm. It's always tough to get a parking there but, I got it. Went to some of the boutiques.
"Nah! The design too simple", "Too expensive", "No size?", "Can't try?". 
These are the excuse I always give myself when I go shopping to prevent overspending. While i was looking at those clothes, comes along Soephix with her both hand with clothes. There are pink, blue, peach... Well, she s trying all of the clothes she is having. She came out from the fitting room and heads to the counter. Sigh! I'm still empty handed. Then we went to the next shop.
Pink! yes, this pink blouse under the 50% sales section. Weird, the Normal price showing RM 49.90 and now it's RM 19.90. Anyway, what am I waiting for. I just grab it and head to the counter and pay. At least I got something for New Year. We continue to the other side of the shops. 
In there, me and Soephix found a blue pants which seems nice. Well, because the shops only have 2, which is the new pants that Soephix bought and the pants that was on the shelf for trying. Of course, I prefer a whole new one, so I guess I shall go to Bangsar for it on Saturday.
On the way home, we had a talk. I was kind of surprise on the conversation we had.
S: My colleagues ask me why you didn't call me anymore.
K: Haha.. They miss me?
S: Well, I miss your voice too. But I told them that you resigned that's why need not call me from office anymore.
She added  S: But I told them that... "This friend of mine.. sigh... I also pity her. Nothing in her life seems easy. Luck is always not with her. Studies, relationships and now, career. I hope she will be better." Don't worry, the sun will shine after the storm. The sky will soon be clear.
K: (Gasp!) But... Why are you feeling sorry for me or even pity me? I don't see that as unlucky or anything. I mean, it's something that educates me. Take career for example, at least, I know what to seek and what I want. I know I will be successful in my career. I'm not worry, and so you should not too. If I didn't met such obstacle, I will not learn. Not everyone has a chance to experience it. (I gave her an wink).
S: I'm glad that you think it this way. Anyhow, I do wish you have enough of these. Ever since SPM, you life.. Let's hope it will be better. K: I'm glad that you care, but I felt guilty for you to worry such minor things of mine. Anyway, i can assure you, things are not that bad. It is getting better that the past. I can walk out from the circle in the past, and now its nothing already.
After sending Soephix home, I begin to think, I'm really lucky to have such friend. i'm not that unlucky afterall. I'm lucky all these while.
Friday, January 21, 2005
Unforgetable
When love and hates colides... Follow me... Love, Me.. all these songs.. he once introduced it and even sang it to her. Her mind can't kept playing back the memories they had in the past. She wanted to forget it but.. Do they really need to pretend like a stranger even if they met, just to show they are over? If things have to be this way, why do they even met or be together in the first place?
He asked her if she love him, and she was sursprised but not knowing how to answer. What should she said when she not know him well? But isn't it too late for her to answer now? When she already in his ignore list? If only his see this.. how much she misses him... When will the feeling ends? When will she ever gets to forget him just like how he had forget her...
When will she ever get to move on with her new life? When will she ever found the right guy and forget the past? When will he let her go and stop manupulating her? When will he realised how bad is he treating her.. If only she knows.. Only, time will tells...
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
New Year preparations
Chinese New Year is around the corner. I guess everyone is busy cleaning up the house and also preparing for Chinese new year. I just finish baking some cookies. New style, was trying on a sunflower chocolate cookies. Well, it turns out to be quite okay. But i guess i need to improve on the chocolate part. No idea how to put it flat on the cookies. If you know how to do it please do comment it to me.
Some how in the middle of the cookies process, i went to KLIA. haha.. nope.. i was sending my dad to Germany. Let's hope he will get some souvenier for me *wink*
Okies.. that's bout it.. I will upload the cookies photo perphaps by saturday. so be patient. Btw, if you wan to buy some cookies form em.. no problem :)
Monday, January 17, 2005
2004 Christmas Party
Well, On the year 2004, I celebrated the Christmas at One of my high school mate House in Shah Alam. Took some photo which can be viewed in the Photo session. And below are 3 significants group photos that are taken on that day. Will be updating more on the event as time goes..
Click on the image for the actual size... (if you want to save it )
Past Time Poems
I wonder how, I wonder why....
I've been writing a lot of poems. Guess My previous job really provide me a lot of freedom and time. Anyways it's past, today my first day in CSA. Well, typical MNC company but the visibility of the organization are kinda low. First day, and I'm required to make a critical decision by tomorrow morning. It does scare me but hell...
anyways, I prefer it this way, at least, I do not have to face the clock nor the clock looking at me too. Time do travel fast today, of course without me sleeping at home. Well, let's hope tomorrow I will have another adventure day.
The following poem is written when I was in Fluidtech. This is how I kill my time in that company. Give me some advise on this as I really do still have some more to write... I mean continue the poem as it does not ends there....
Walk, my dear,
To the path of one desire,
What lies ahead, one should not fear,
For it brings no barrier.
Stop, my dear,
Lay down the gears,
And forlorn no peers,
With them, enjoy some beers.
Don't look back, my dear,
The barrier will soon be clear,
Grief and guilt are not one should bear,
Learn and shed no tears
Continue, my dear,
Finish up the journey of one desire,
What lies ahead, will soon be clear,
As success will be near
White moonlight
White moonlight,
In the heart it buried,
So vivid, yet so cold
Everyone has their sorrow
Wanting to hide it, but how?
White moonlight,
Glowing in the sky so high,
Hidden, its in my heart,
Can't dry the your running tears,
The journey is long, to chase forgiveness.
You are my wounds that can't heal
Wanting to forget, but can't help to recall
Going into exile, staggering along the road
Can't free myself from your binds
White moonlight,
Glowing in the sky so high,
The more it's concealed, the more lonely I felt
Can't erase the tears in my memory
The Journey is too long, how can I atone?
You are my wounds that can't heal
Wanting to forget, but can't help to recall
Going into exile, staggering along the road
Can't free myself from your binds
White moonlight,
In the heart it buried,
So vivid, yet so cold
Everyone has their sorrow
Wanting to hide it, but still it grows -inter-
After
Por los momentos difíciles,
ya entendí que la flor más bella
sería siempre para mi.
Because of all these setbacks,
Finally realise,
the most beautiful flower,
is blooming for itself...
With your vague gaze
Why do you wander with an ocean of heartbreak
You've been hurt; even your smile paces about
Gypsy girl, who do you sing for?
You will see fog, see rain, see the sun
The cracked earth yields heartache again
He left, but can't take away your heaven
After the storm, rainbow will appear
He left, so you can leave your dreams behind
There must be a place to wait for love to take flight
Happiness isn't far away
Open your windows, and make a wish
You will feel love, feel hate, feel forgiveness
Life will not always be filled with heartache
-interz-
Sunday, January 16, 2005
3 reasons why I love thee
3 reasons why I love thee
-------------------------
The colour of your eyes amazes me,
as I fall in love, in them I see,
This is the first reason my dove,
To tell u why, that you I love,
The second reason shall be,
The happiness u bring to me ,
which lights up my day,
Through all u can say,
The third, and last,
not to say it too fast,
Is the touch u have to me,
which unchains me and makes me free! -inter-
Dreamz
I dreamt a dream, a dream of you,
Where You were there, and faces were few,
Where close, I held you, in both my arms,
I kissed your lips to a waltz we danced.
Oh how we weave, the dreams we dream,
For what may come and what may seem,
It's not real, but its just a dream,
gently , gently going by a gentle stream.
Dream lovers we are, lovers in the strangest worlds.
for time does not love us, whereas it folds,
To a place where we shan't know ,
Where our hearts shall stay low,
But what can we do as I truly love you,
In a world of wonders and few,
I still love you,
If only u knew.
I love you....... (inter)
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Unfortunate Event
Just got back from a dinner with my ex-colleague in Fridays. It's almost been 2 months since. I'm so glad to see her. Well, of course she got a shock of her life when she saw me. Who doesn't I mean who would expected look like this already. Once a youthful and innocent face undergo a 180 degree transform. Well, that does not matter though. We order some food and chit chat there. This time I got the shock of my life. A bad news. She told me an unfortunate news on her dad. Her dad still in the ICU ward in Alor Setar GH after knocked down by a motorist. He had kinda bad injury on his head. She looks worry, for her dad and of course her mom who have to take care of her dad now in the hospital. It happen last week. When she describe the incident and how she reacted, I saw the tears flowing. It does remind me of my aunt. Still remember when I saw her in the hospital, my tears flushes down. As I stood next to her, I began to talk to her even though she is unconscious. All the relatives were surrounding us. She was the one who been so close to me , just like a best friend....
Monday, January 10, 2005
The Unkept Promise
With a smile, he looked at me and said,” You are back! It's lovely to see you." He gave me a hug. It's always the smile on his face that I wanted to see every time I'm back. If only I can drive, I would have gone back everyday if permit. "Dear, you do have all the time you wanted now, but, do remember as you grow older, time do not comes so easily." I never understand what he said. Time is something that I have a lot to spare in those days. "Don't you worry. I will come back for you every week even if I have to work. I will not leave you alone. NEVER!" I said without thinking the consequences of the statement I've made. Again, he looks at me and smile. If only I had kept that promise. Time is moving faster and faster. If only I have 48 hours a day. No.. I may need more. Anyhow it's too late....
"Are you coming back tonight?" he asked. "No. I'm sorry. There is something that I need to finish up by today." I replied, looking at the time in my car. I'm on my way to work. Yes, it's a weekend but work just came up suddenly. He hung up sounding disappointed.
The following weeks then months, he called and the replied stay the same. Until, one day....
"Hi! Uncle Gabriel here. Can you come back now?" the voice said. Trying hard to remember Uncle Gabriel, I replied, "Sorry, I have a meeting here. What is it?"
"It's him. He has gone." What? Him? Uncle Gabriel? Now I remember, Uncle Gabriel is his neighbour. My tear fell as I got the message about him. Memories flush through my mind, the promise that I shall keep. It's too late and I haven't went back for half a year. If only I made my effort to see him one last time. I know how dissapointed he will be. "He left a message for you. He said that he will not blame you for not coming back for him. He understand how workaholic his granddaughter is. He hope you wil be strong and be a successful working lady" He continued. If only I could turn back time. Feeling sorry... Regrets... Sadness.. Speechless.. All that in my mind is his smile..
GLOOMY SUNDAY (1933) It is autumn and the leaves are
falling All love has died on
earth The wind is weeping with sorrowful
tears My heart will never hope for a new
spring again My tears and my sorrows are all in
vain People are heartless, greedy and
wicked...
Love has died!
The world has come to its end, hope
has ceased to have a meaning Cities are being wiped out,
shrapnel is making music Meadows are coloured red with human
blood There are dead people on the
streets everywhere I will say another quiet
prayer: People are sinners, Lord, they make
mistakes...
The world has ended!
-Rezsô Seress (1899-1968)-
Friday, January 07, 2005
More On the Domain
Just got back from Malacca. Nope, it ain't a vacation. It's a business trip. Surprisingly, I'm no way tired from the drive. Instead, I can't sleep. Well, let's hope not insomnia again. It has long cured.. I hope. Well, at least for 3 months I'm been getting good sleep. Since, there is time, might as well I not waste it. I had added some photos on Christmas as well as my family trip to Genting (Genting Again? Well been 1 year since I been there). I will describe some of the photo in the gallery as time goes by....
I also added some poems in the story section as I haven't dug up those short nostalgia stories from my diary Yet (Yes.. I'm slow.. And stop bugging me). If you have any comment, do write it in the guestbook so that I can correct on those poems.
And for my mugglez.. Check out your new house in the buddies section. Hope you like the house that I built for you. It's not easy to set up such a nice neighborhood. Though, I"m looking forward to be awarded the Best township of the year in 2005. So.. Please be corporative, don't vandalized or misuse anything that given. If you have any complaints about your house (such as water leaking, walls cracking, noisy neighbor and such ) don't bother to find me. But... (there are often exceptional) If you want to change your house, you can request just like one of our mugglez (you know who) and I will see what I can do for you (Of course when I'm in the mood).
enjoys peepz
| | | | | | | |
|